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sebastienneat the moment i am feeling incredibly happy, singing along to evanescence and harmonising.
i don't know why; maybe there is no reason. AG sent me the Harvard student newspaper, just because it had an article about BDSM in - no other reason. i'm reading anne rice again, queen of the damned. today i had the best damn mocha in the world, i don't care that it cost £2.25.
this morning, however, i was more depressed than i have been in ages. so depressed, in fact, i was thinking like ginsberg in the voice of tom waits.
I hate homophobia in the college that holds queer bop. I hate one quarter of American states passing laws that outlaw love in law. I hate a world in which this can happen, but kiss the lips of my dead God in gratitude for the European Court of Human Rights. I am scared of America and I fear the American dream, because I don't believe it cares who it hurts on its way to fulfillment. I am scared of myself and the fact that I am not Gandhi, I am scared because a man was killed on the South Bank for his homosexuality. I am scared that no-one will listen to me because I am not Ginsberg. I am scared that no-one is listening to Ginsberg because he's a dirty filthy liberal, fighting the homosexual agenda. Who next, Whitman too? He liked boys, I guess his strophes were all for nothing. I guess he must be evil and corrupting and we must protect the children! Because God forbid they would think it OK to love someone.
at least the fact that i have to buy my own food means it's harder to fall back into the cycle of compulsive overeating. i haven't done that once since i arrived here. in fact, i have generally been happier since arriving here.
i don't know why; maybe there is no reason. AG sent me the Harvard student newspaper, just because it had an article about BDSM in - no other reason. i'm reading anne rice again, queen of the damned. today i had the best damn mocha in the world, i don't care that it cost £2.25.
this morning, however, i was more depressed than i have been in ages. so depressed, in fact, i was thinking like ginsberg in the voice of tom waits.
I hate homophobia in the college that holds queer bop. I hate one quarter of American states passing laws that outlaw love in law. I hate a world in which this can happen, but kiss the lips of my dead God in gratitude for the European Court of Human Rights. I am scared of America and I fear the American dream, because I don't believe it cares who it hurts on its way to fulfillment. I am scared of myself and the fact that I am not Gandhi, I am scared because a man was killed on the South Bank for his homosexuality. I am scared that no-one will listen to me because I am not Ginsberg. I am scared that no-one is listening to Ginsberg because he's a dirty filthy liberal, fighting the homosexual agenda. Who next, Whitman too? He liked boys, I guess his strophes were all for nothing. I guess he must be evil and corrupting and we must protect the children! Because God forbid they would think it OK to love someone.
at least the fact that i have to buy my own food means it's harder to fall back into the cycle of compulsive overeating. i haven't done that once since i arrived here. in fact, i have generally been happier since arriving here.
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Date: 2004-11-07 01:24 pm (UTC)also, you rock.
also queen of the damned!!! a ladylick recommendation has made its way into your reading list! *loves you madly*
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Date: 2004-11-07 03:10 pm (UTC)and, yes, gay people are just cooler :p but, it's ok, you & narayani can be my token straight friends!
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Date: 2004-11-07 03:52 pm (UTC)and you and simon and alice can be my token gay friends. and paul, my new gay friend from here, who is SUCH a hoot and you will have to meet him.
queen of the damned is wonderful. lestat is hot. we don't mind the porn, it keeps us warm through long winter nights (oh i forgot you have a girlfriend to snuggle with now you lucky poop :p).
that is all.