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[sebastienne]

since people left at lunchtime left today i have mostly been:

- contemplating the meaningless void which lies at the centre of everything.

- realising that i am entirely gay apart from johnny depp, jonathan rhys meyers, jude law and brian molko. yes, i know, all the men who are so effeminate they may as well be women.

- coming to terms with my middle-class mediocrity which, for all my pretensions, is actually a part of me i cannot bloody well shake. i have accepted that i will never be a great writer, thinker, actor, etc. i will work in an office all my life, and sit at home watching hedwig and wilde with my cats & a bottle of wine.

- shipping my friends, being careful to leave myself out.

- crying some over the general absurdity of everything, fighting my own personal fight against nihilism.

- listening to insanely pretty music grace à prisstina.

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yes, last night i lost several virginities. i feel i am now a fully adult woman.

1. i saw two boys of my aquaintance kissing (each other)

2. i drank absinthe

3. i had camp simon naked in my bed

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oh sure, it was a beautiful night. and i couldn't have celebrated my 18th in any other way.

Comments

[jix1125.livejournal.com]

Hey, you seem really cool. I found your journal through researching typicalemobitch (because I have NO idea why she added me). I'm adding you, if that's okay.

[sebastienne.livejournal.com]

why, of course it is!

she amuses me a lot that girl - or, people's reactions to her do.

[soliloquy-sound.livejournal.com]

Ahh the doom of middle-class mediocrity! We shall forever be barred from the 'creativity through personal struggle and sacrifice' club, scorned due to our suburban upbringing, organic food and righteous liberal views.....(I'm talking of course about the guardianista middle-classes, since the daily-mail brigade will take a whooole other tone)
lol
Because only the working class can be 'great writers'; Julie Burchill and Tracy Emin will be glad to hear :)
x

[sebastienne.livejournal.com]

thank you for understanding! and expressing it so well. you made me smile after a crappy morning.

[threadbarewolf.livejournal.com]

Add the wolf! Add me! I feel deprived. I am depraved. It all adds up.

For real prissy goodness (http://www.deadjournal.com/~lilypond), click me baby one more time.

Middle class mediocrity

[wmintski.livejournal.com]

You know, I think that you can take charge of your life better than succombing to remarking that everything you do is because of your upbringing. If it doesn't suit you to be tied down to the narrow-minded middle class then you can be a misfit instead. I'm not sure which way is preferable. Personally I may just leave the whole country.

Re: Middle class mediocrity

[sebastienne.livejournal.com]

oh, i'm not as resigned as that...just...i have not got the courage to follow my dreams and would rather blame that on something from outside me than something from inside me.

shallow, i know. but it helps with my sanity.