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[sebastienne]

I didn't get it.

I could feel, in the interview, that I was their second-choice candidate (not that this says much; I'm pretty sure that there were only two candidates!) so have spent the last 24 hours in a haze of painful almost-certain uncertainty. This confirmation is good in comparison; it's closure.

What I should focus on, then, is making my application for 2010 as strong as possible.

The first step is to crack on with making sure that my dissertation is distinction-worthy, so that I fulfill the requirement for academic excellence; after that I need to engage with Social Informatics, and with my potential-future-supervisor, so as to make the strongest application possible.

I should also put in applications for the Research Assistant positions that I've been looking at. More research experience can only be a good thing, and I think I'd like to put electrodes on people's heads for a living!

Unfortunately, something funny appears to have happened to my motivation, so these things may have to wait. All I want to do is get on my new pink bike (thanks magic_doors!) and ride and ride and ride. Preferably in the rain. Oh, teenage melodrama, never leave me.

I think I'll go and buy a bike helmet and lock, and pick the thing up from the Oxford Cycle Workshop.

Comments

[jacinthsong.livejournal.com]

Boo, I'm sorry to hear that. You are still awesome and dedicated, though.

[deepbluemermaid.livejournal.com]

I offer sympathy and chocolate.

Given the incredibly short notice of the studentship, you did amazingly well. With more time, your research proposal and interview performance will probably blow their minds!

[liminereid.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry it's not worked out this year. But next year they will see your genius. Plus we are obivously linked and obviously you couldn't start your phd with out me starting one! (Ok maybe not that, but that makes it mmy fault not yours)

[robot-mel.livejournal.com]

Sorry you didn't get it. I'm sure having more than a week to prepare for next year will make a huge difference. I think you are definitely entitled to take a day off and ride your bike before getting back to work!

[chiasmata]

Oh, boo them. Still, you will be even more awesome next year. xxx

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm sorry to hear it, my dear. Enjoy cycling - it really is therapeutic at times. :)

[sebastienne.livejournal.com]

and also, perhaps, I can't do a degree in a different city to you!

[sebastienne.livejournal.com]

I haven't ridden a bike in ten years! It's awesome!

[flippac.livejournal.com]

Aw, crap. Hope the bike helps ride off some of the stress!

[anotherusedpage.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

If I were you, I would see if I could muster the bravery to ask them for formal feedback. *nodnod*

Take care, lovey. This year will be fabulous to you, I bet, and next year you will be even more fabulously ready to do the phd.

[calliope85.livejournal.com]

Bugger :(

*offers you a huggable Brigadier.*

[liminereid.livejournal.com]

Exactly. All my fault. xxx

[brightlywoven.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear it, and sorry you endured a horrible day of waiting (those are truly gut wrenching). Hope the bike riding is going fabulously! (and that you have a helmet. Sorry, professional tic)

[sebastiality.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. They will realize they made a mistake by not taking you this year when they take you next year.
Enjoy your bike!

[vampire-kitten.livejournal.com]

Foolish academics. :( Next year will be better.

[antoniabaker.livejournal.com]

babes, everything turns out for the best, in this best of all possible worlds! this was a hurried application and now you can do a really really good one ready for next time. xxx

[half-of-monty.livejournal.com]

:-(

Still, good job on the being fairly philosophical about it. And don't forget that you also need a spot of the old rest in the next year!

How / why have you lived so long in Oxford without a bike?

[sebastienne.livejournal.com]

Absolute terror of the Oxford roads, mostly. But already - I've not even had it a week! - I feel oddly bereft to have left it at home due to this morning's rain.