sebastienne

I've never done this - but, on reflection, I think I know why already. It's because I already don't conform to Western beauty standards because I have brown skin. So even if I do things that are mainstream for me - i.e., don't try and look white, then I can be seen on my own terms without the need for, say, pink hair. Does that make sense? And when I'm in India, I will not wear a sari or any make-up, I won't wear anything but my jeans and scruffy t-shirts and boots, I'll be much more performatively butch than I ever am here, and I think it's just for the reasons you mention. There, I conform to the standards enough to be judged by them. That is some good analysis, there.