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[sebastienne]

for a while, when i was being silly & panicky & anxious, i'd be in the shower and suddenly i'd KNOW that there was something horrible behind me, and if i didn't turn round, despite shampoo in my eyes etc, Bad Things would happen. as with all my other irrational panicky symptoms, it had been starting to go away as finals drew to a close, and had been completely gone for the last few weeks.

well not any bloody more. before, there was just a nebulous feeling of dread.. now the fuckers have a face! and a proper REASON why i must open my eyes NOW despite soap suds and consciousness of my own irrationality. quantum crack-science.

great. baths for me for the rest of time, then...