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sebastienne) wrote2006-06-30 11:07 pm
sebastienne) wrote2006-06-30 11:07 pm
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so, i'm in london now. i've got my priorities straight... wireless internet is already all set up, although i haven't unpacked anything but my laptop and router.
this is what a lack of internet connection does to a girl:
Broken, my holes make me whole and i'm running, running, running (free) from/towards completion. I am mathematically determinable and I am an uncaused cause. I am a hypocrite. I am contradictory. I am violently pacifistic, fanatically laid-back, inflexibly permissive. I am Walt Whitman. I am Oscar Wilde. I am a hundred different impossible people I have never heard of and neither have you. And I prefer it this way.
Do I contradict myself?
Very well, then, I contradict myself.
(I am large, I contain multitudes)
I contain infinite potential. Oxford is mine, from Magdalen bells, chiming as the sun rises, guiding me home, to uninhibited goth dancing. I am knit to Oxford, and though its fibres cling to mine more desperately as I travel further away, my heartstrings stretched to breaking across motorways and fields, we are still entwined. I have the power to do anything I want to. What can I do but take my contradictory desires, my conflicting beliefs, my impossible needs, and meet them all, as I run and run and run into infinity?
Does it even matter of which infinity I speak? But I ask you, why would anyone choose the infinitely small mass-point of perfect union and oneness, when they could choose the infinity that contains everything, even 1=/=1 ?
...yeees....
this is what a lack of internet connection does to a girl:
Broken, my holes make me whole and i'm running, running, running (free) from/towards completion. I am mathematically determinable and I am an uncaused cause. I am a hypocrite. I am contradictory. I am violently pacifistic, fanatically laid-back, inflexibly permissive. I am Walt Whitman. I am Oscar Wilde. I am a hundred different impossible people I have never heard of and neither have you. And I prefer it this way.
Do I contradict myself?
Very well, then, I contradict myself.
(I am large, I contain multitudes)
I contain infinite potential. Oxford is mine, from Magdalen bells, chiming as the sun rises, guiding me home, to uninhibited goth dancing. I am knit to Oxford, and though its fibres cling to mine more desperately as I travel further away, my heartstrings stretched to breaking across motorways and fields, we are still entwined. I have the power to do anything I want to. What can I do but take my contradictory desires, my conflicting beliefs, my impossible needs, and meet them all, as I run and run and run into infinity?
Does it even matter of which infinity I speak? But I ask you, why would anyone choose the infinitely small mass-point of perfect union and oneness, when they could choose the infinity that contains everything, even 1=/=1 ?
...yeees....
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