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[sebastienne]

So what if I broke down after the end of term? I pulled myself back together again. All it took was

- a couple of days of locking myself away, uncomfortable even with the concept of leaving my room because of the rest of the flat containing *shudder* people;

- hours and hours and hours of nothingness;

- several random, unwanted binges, like 1.5l of orange juice or a whole bag of raw pasta or 30 donuts, that left me feeling ill, out-of-control and hating myself;

- breaking down and wibbling at Ash about nothing-in-particular when really I should have been being there for her;

- and an AMT coffee milkshake

to put me back together again. Next time I think it might be easier just to go for "all the king's horses and all the king's men"...

I'll blame it on the fact that, what with Michaelmas term being followed by a fulltime job in Oxford, which was immediately followed by Hilary term, (containing horrible horrible illness) which was immediately followed by Revising Like Fuck For Upcoming Exams (containg learning for the first time stuff I missed through illness), which was immediately followed by Exams Of Doom, which were immediately followed by Trinity term... I haven't had a break since September. When I tried to immediately make myself start working on my project and packing up my room, after the end of term, my body & mind just said "FUCK THAT" and decided they'd enforce a break on me.

Comments

[potatofiend.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Your body and mind were right; I'm glad you're listening to them.

[the-whybird.livejournal.com]

Agreed - listening to mind & body is almost always a good thing.

I'm sorry I wasn't able to be there for you... I had no idea you were being eaten up that badly until you were almost over things. Gah. Not a very good boyfriend, am I?

[sebastienne.livejournal.com]

well, i was actively avoiding people, so i don't think you can hold yourself too responsible for that. and even if you had persuaded me that letting you help would be a good idea, i would just have sulked and wibbled to you about the first thing that came into my head, when the real truth was that there was no reason for my feeling crappy. i just was. and now it's gone.

[vampire-kitten.livejournal.com]

*huggles* I remember doing that at the end of 2nd year (I slept straight through 2 days, and then spent the next week doing eat, sleep, eat, sleep, growl at anyone trying to make me communicate)

[sushi-radical.livejournal.com]

Hey, I think we've all been there at times, important thing is to take a break before it all goes proper pear-shaped.

[athalassia.livejournal.com]

Oh no! Sounds bad. But at least you are shiny now, it's ok to go a bit Bleurgh every now and then- makes you realise how nice things are when stuff goes well.

[mundi-gaudium.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

Breaks are always of the good, although it sucks a bit when they have to be enforced ones. You've had an immense year, and achieved it all splendidly - congratulations!

Reluctant as I am to encourage to you to get up to shenanigans any further, have you heard the rumours yet?

RENT, Hilary term 2007!!

*squee*!

[foreverdirt.livejournal.com]

I'm very glad you pulled yourself back together again.

I think everyone needs occasional time off from having to cope, even if the not-coping itself isn't pleasant. (Mmm, understatement...)

I hope you continue to stay put together.

[ex-leighwoos982.livejournal.com]

Well I was like that for a YEAR. And then I gave up on my degree and went back to boringsville, where I hated myself. I think your way is better.

[gatty.livejournal.com]

This whole not living near eachother thing it totally shite. I'm sorry I've been lost in exams and not around. You have been there over and over for me, and I wish I could have done something. Though it sounds like it just had to run it's course... you got out the otherside and that's what'ss important. *hugs* I will see you soon, yes?

[aliche.livejournal.com]

Ooopsy..b'oke it.

Remeber the benefits of mental health days...they always leave one shiney.

[otterylexa.livejournal.com]

*hugs*