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feeling autumnal
Oct. 5th, 2010 06:32 pmLearning Perl is so much more fun than doing any real work!
This means that I feel guilty on two fronts:
a) guilty that I'm not picking this up fast enough to achieve the tasks I've been set
b) guilty whenever I work on learning Perl because it feels like getting paid to play around
What this reminds me of most is the way that maths felt in primary school. I don't think I'm as good at this as I was at maths in primary school, sadly. But it's a good feeling, when I understand, when I get something right, when I make something work. I've signed up to do some hacking on Dreamwidth, which (miraculously!) is Perl/Apache/Ubuntu, just like my work.
In the last week I have also created an awesome termcard for DocSoc, placed an FOI request regarding outsourcing at Oxford Uni, cooked healthy meals with lots of vegetables in, helped lots of freshers get oriented in the library, taken my bike in for a service, been to London for a Scrabble pub-crawl..
I have achieved things, despite the urge to hibernate (stay in bed, do nothing, eat junk) being stronger than I have ever previously experienced. I have no reason for guilt or panic.
.. this post sounds like a CBT mantra, doesn't it? Well, that kind of thing is helpful to make public, sometimes.
This means that I feel guilty on two fronts:
a) guilty that I'm not picking this up fast enough to achieve the tasks I've been set
b) guilty whenever I work on learning Perl because it feels like getting paid to play around
What this reminds me of most is the way that maths felt in primary school. I don't think I'm as good at this as I was at maths in primary school, sadly. But it's a good feeling, when I understand, when I get something right, when I make something work. I've signed up to do some hacking on Dreamwidth, which (miraculously!) is Perl/Apache/Ubuntu, just like my work.
In the last week I have also created an awesome termcard for DocSoc, placed an FOI request regarding outsourcing at Oxford Uni, cooked healthy meals with lots of vegetables in, helped lots of freshers get oriented in the library, taken my bike in for a service, been to London for a Scrabble pub-crawl..
I have achieved things, despite the urge to hibernate (stay in bed, do nothing, eat junk) being stronger than I have ever previously experienced. I have no reason for guilt or panic.
.. this post sounds like a CBT mantra, doesn't it? Well, that kind of thing is helpful to make public, sometimes.