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i thought of l.b. today.

i remember how, when we were walking in a crowd, she used to walk behind me and blow air towards the back of my neck. ever so gentley. and nobody ever noticed that she was doing it.

i don't know whether i miss her - because if she was back in my life there would be so many issues i don't even want to have to think about - but i wish i could just follow her around for a day & not be seen. just see how she is, how she's living her life, make sure she's happy & doing what she wants to be.

ok, maybe i do miss her. then again, maybe this is an entirely selfish emotion. maybe i just feel unloved at the moment and so am thinking back to a time i knew i was loved.

yeah, i thought of l.b. today.